Rawr.These days, the anxiety that was so nicely packed away for several weeks has reared its ugly head and once again I feel powerless to stop it from consuming me. Why is being positive not enough?! It has a lot to do with money issues and Rob and I dealing with last minute preparations to go back to school. It's funny how school arrives like a surprise every fall, even when you knew it was coming all summer.
Speaking of school, at some point my desire to go back did arrive! I was almost certain I had seen the last of that sensation. Many later-years midwifery students had told me that the desire to be with women and babies DOES come back, but I felt so overwhelmed by the winter placement that I honestly couldn't see that happening. But here I am; it happened.
This year - my third - will be a little different. Rather than midwifery-focused placements, we do a series of one-month placements with complementing health care professionals. My first placement will be in a NICU, and after that I am off to the Women's Health Clinic in Winnipeg for a month. In January and February I will be doing a month with an OB and then a month with the L&D nurses. In March we have an elective placement, and I have chosen to do a month with midwives in Winnipeg. Our fourth year begins in May, which will be a year-long midwifery placement with increasing responsibility. I think of it as "The Beast", and it terrifies me... but I'm just gonna cross that bridge when I get to it.
I'm pretty excited about the placements this year. They will be challenging, but will involve a different kind of pressure.
Meowrve
Speaking of school, at some point my desire to go back did arrive! I was almost certain I had seen the last of that sensation. Many later-years midwifery students had told me that the desire to be with women and babies DOES come back, but I felt so overwhelmed by the winter placement that I honestly couldn't see that happening. But here I am; it happened.
This year - my third - will be a little different. Rather than midwifery-focused placements, we do a series of one-month placements with complementing health care professionals. My first placement will be in a NICU, and after that I am off to the Women's Health Clinic in Winnipeg for a month. In January and February I will be doing a month with an OB and then a month with the L&D nurses. In March we have an elective placement, and I have chosen to do a month with midwives in Winnipeg. Our fourth year begins in May, which will be a year-long midwifery placement with increasing responsibility. I think of it as "The Beast", and it terrifies me... but I'm just gonna cross that bridge when I get to it.
I'm pretty excited about the placements this year. They will be challenging, but will involve a different kind of pressure.
Meowrve
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