Arrived home last night from a life-changing two-weeks in Winnipeg. I haven't figured out how to put into words what was so life-changing about it. It was the first time I thought that perhaps we will end up back in Winnipeg after all this school stuff is done. Spending time with people I love who love me back was incredible. It's so easy to hang out with people who love you for who you are. I felt SO positive by the time I left that I was motivated to bring that positivity back to Toronto with me. So far so good, but after almost 24 hours of being home I'm feeling a little bored and unfulfilled. No friends to call up here - and it turns out that calling up friends to hang out is my favourite part of summer and I just never realized it before because I took the ability to do it for granted.
It makes me wonder how many things I take for granted that I don't even realize?
As part of all of this I am motivated to be more of a partner to Rob. I can't rely on him to do every little thing while I lie around depressed. Today I cleaned out the fridge and freezer, joined Costco and stocked the kitchen. I made him lunch and am moving on to supper soon while he has a nap. He got a job and we are so thrilled!
Today I talked to a recent graduate of the midwifery program / friend from my placement clinic, and she raved about how much she loved third year since there is not the same pressure to perform as there is with the second and fourth year midwifery placements. I am truly finding my desire to go back to school - a feeling I never thought would return.
Not much of a blog post, but it'll have to do for now. I feel I have a lot of thinking to do on all that has shifted inside me in the last two weeks.