It's amazing what a couple of days off, two 10-hour nights of sleep, a trip to Ikea for some organizers and shelves, and two double-doses of vitamin b can do for one's outlook on life.
After my last post, I kidnapped Rob when he came home from work and we went out for dinner to a little thai restaurant nearby that I've been wanting to try. We used to go for thai food about once a month back in Winnipeg; it was one of our favourite things to do. Now we don't have the luxury of going out for dinner as much as we used to, but I think it's important to make room for things that ground us once in awhile. Inside the cozy little red-walled restaurant, I told him how I was feeling over rice rolls and pad thai. He sympathized and empathized, and said he was really feeling the same way. We made a decision to try harder to live in the present.
Together, we spent Sunday doing things around the apartment that we just sort of were never getting around to. With a bit of love and attention, we finally have a place that I completely love coming home to again. Rob even re-potted the sad little plant clippings we had been neglecting in a corner, and now they are thriving all over the living room. My anxiety has calmed. For now, I feel better.