I had a really good time in Ottawa. I loved the long drive there and back, singing along at the top of my lungs with my new car stereo. I loved finally seeing my friend's place that I've heard so much about - it was really nice. I loved spending the week with three cats, one of whom was Willow! We had this idea that we would talk about whether I should bring her back with me or not. But when I saw her there, I realized how good she has it. The backyard is beautiful, and she has Bugsy to play with. Juniper and Willow don't really get along, but they do seem kind of used to each other. I think, as we had discussed earlier, they really will be fine when they have more space. Oh how I love her! And so, we decided she should stay put.
I had my palm and gypsy cards read by a fortune teller. My friend had a reading by her a few weeks ago and was impressed, so we went back for a more detailed reading for her and a basic one for me. The fortune teller told me I have very beautiful "air hands", which indicate that I am extremely intellectual and detail-oriented in the way I think, that I hate stupid people very much - although I would never show it on the outside, and that I am seen by other people to be quite "snobby" and cold on first impression. I experience no major health issues to speak of, and she sees no reason why I do not live a long life (into my 80s), although there may be some digestive issues and perhaps something in the low back - arthritis? She saw no career to speak of - at least not one that plays a major role in my life. She said she could see that I am good at many things, but don't really excel at any one thing. She could see that I am fragile in my health, and that I get tired and fatigued easily. She said this should not be a problem as long as I get more than 8 hours of sleep every night and don't go into any line of work where I would have to work during the night (perfect, that fits right in with the life of a midwife... oh wait...). She saw two children - likely a girl and a boy, with the girl coming first, but not soon (phewf). My marriage is strong and there is lots and lots of love from my husband who treats me like a princess (then she said "he probably calls you a princess, doesn't he?" Ummmm.... yeah, he does. Ahem.). She saw a small line alongside the marriage line which indicates EITHER that my husband and I live fairly independent lives, OR that there is an affair (you know, either or, no big deal.). She said I am a person who needs to be shown love through lots of attention, gifts and affection and that I need to stop "hinting" to my husband and start being more specific - i.e. "Look at these flowers! Let's buy some." instead of "Wow, these flowers are really pretty.... sigh....". Incidentally, this made me laugh a lot. I can't count how many times I've done the latter (with no results!). She saw no travel to speak of, especially not through work. This made me sad. And she kind of recommended that I would make an ideal housewife. The weirdest part of all was when she said that there is someone in my life who has caused me pain or suffering, but that I should not worry - they will get what they deserve. Whoa! I have no idea who this might be, nor do I usually wish anyone pain or suffering... but when I said this, she looked confused for a second but then said that no, this type of card reading is rarely, if ever, wrong so I should just think about it for a few days and see what comes to me.
All in all it was a strange thing to try to process. Overall she told me things in my life are extremely positive right now and that these "tears on the bottom of my heart" are not necessary. She urged me to try to take things a day at a time and stop worrying about the future because I can't control it and it is making me miss things that are happening right now - for example, worrying about where my placement will be in two months makes me miss enjoying my summer with my husband. She said she foresees the next year being quite pleasant for me with no real upsets. This is glorious news! And here I thought I was in for another painful year of midwifery education.
We shall see what the future holds, but for now I am inspired to do my best to take it a day at a time.
Incidentally, the hubby is currently making pancakes for me. This morning I said "wouldn't you like to make pancakes like that time you made them and they were soooo good?" and he replied "you've been up longer than me and I don't see YOU making pancakes." So I thought about the fortune teller's words and tried this "Make me pancakes." It worked... maybe she really DOES know what she's talking about!